| Monday, August 21, 2006 |
| No One Else Knows... |
I've been going through some difficult family pain. I really feel my sister married someone she barely knew because she thought this was her last chance. I really think it was a mid-life crisis. I mean I have no other way of understanding how she ended up with this guy who's not even a Christian. It's just been aweful. It's just been so hard to deal with. I don't even know who she is anymore. Anyway, this situation just really got me to the place where I realized my family isn't my everything. They let me down. They won't always be there for me. Right now I feel more alone then I ever have. I feel so disconnected. At the end of the day I know the One person who has always been there for me and always will. The One person who will NEVER let me down. He is who He says He is, and He will never change. He's consistent. And He always looks forward to talking with me, even after I've hurt Him. He doesn't get mad and slam a door. He may be upset and hurt, but He never pushes me away. I really feel I've had to be broken in so many ways--friends, family, etc for me to finally see the God is first in my life. He has to be first.....everyone else will fall off that pedestal......they aren't number one.
There is absolutely no one who can understand us fully and completely except the One who made us and knows us better than we know ourselves. Have you ever felt like you "can't see beyond this place?" Well, trust theOne who can. He knows exactly how you feel, in fact He can explain it to you :) He is my sanity. He is my strength. At the end of the day, I have Him to come home to and He welcomes me with outstretched arms. He is the one who will wipe our tears away when no one has a clue we've been crying. Well He knows. And He's there right now with you in your pain, feeling it just the same. Let Him hold you today. He knows.
Building 429~~No One Else Knows
My world is closing in
On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I’m broken
I’m broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms
Again
I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand the
emptiness inside my head
I am falling
I am falling
I’m falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
I am flying
Lord I am flying
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms
Again
I have come to you in search of faith
Cause I can’t see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I’ll leave it in Your hands |
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| Monday, August 14, 2006 |
| I'd say it's time for a post! |
It sure has been a while since I've posted. I went on vacation to St. Thomas and St. John, and I've had trouble returning back to regular mode! I'm still on island time :) I'll have to post some pictures soon. Of course there's still one roll in my camera (wherever that is). I really would like to get a digital camera, but I just don't know anything about them. I do have a bit of a passion for photography. I've never taken a class though. I can take some really good pictures. The weather for most of our trip was not picture perfect weather. We could still go out and do stuff, but I just could not capture the shots that I had hoped for. I did get one good picture. When I say good I mean more toward the professional quality I'm going for. The contrast was awesome. You know I think I'll post a couple, and I'll start with that one.
Well maybe I won't be posting a pic. I tried to put one on here and it said it's been added and I don't see anything! I'm not sure how this works......I'll try to figure this out. |
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